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Forum: Rants Topic: containment breach imminant........ started by: BlackFlag Posted by BlackFlag on Jul. 22 2002,09:30
just finished the longest fucking 12 hour work shift ever.God i was so fucking close to picking up one of the emergency baseball bats and tearing into a group of homeboys who think they're hot shit when they come in numbers.......... I think i could have injured/killed at least 3 of them before they beat me down. Or maybe they would have run like pussies. Anything would have been better than them talking shit about me, fucking with my customers, and me standing there smiling, not saying a fucking word, like a pussy. I was afraid, but more of myself than of them. There is a scream inside me, and i can't let it out. I can feel it pulsating in my chest. I can feel is incessent tug on my grey matter. It goes away after a while, but it always comes back, bigger and stronger. This is primal. This is animal. I am afraid. Every day i come closer to loosing my grip on it. When it bubbles to the surface, it makes me tremble inside, and it takes all my willpower to hold it in. I've have a nervous breakdown before, but i've never felt anything quite like this. Is this normal? Please for the love of god tell me it isn't; i can't deal with this much longer. I think i need help, but i can't fucking afford a psyciatrist or medications. I can't even afford cigarettes anymore. Someting bad is going to happen. Posted by forumwhore on Jul. 22 2002,13:22
Dear BF; I have the phone number for God, not that I use it. I'm not kidding. since my email goes down daily, you can call *me at 1 323 221 5129 and I'll tell you. pacific Posted by Necromancer on Jul. 22 2002,14:49
kevin stop smoking so much crack and BF see if you can't get out of the city for a day or so. or try getting another job, even if it is the "sales assistant" type thing at least try to avoid the 7/11
Posted by BlackFlag on Jul. 22 2002,17:40
phone number for god....?are you a scientoligist? |