Forum: The Classroom
Topic: I don't feel right
started by: Neophyre

Posted by Neophyre on Mar. 06 2001,08:16
I dunno how to start this, or even know why i'm doing this.

but of late, i've been feeling really depressed, and i've got no idea why.
school has been great, i've got a really good group of friends, but im relatively new to the area and to the school, but i love it so far. I'm not an overly confident person, shy more than anything, i find it difficult getting actively involved in conversations, but i still give it a go. I guess i'm a good person to talk to, and i'll listen.

my previous school years had been pretty bad, i didn't enjoy it at all, i guess something to do with my parents getting divorced and stuff, but now with this school im at now things are great.

yet every morning i wake up and i'm disapointed that i woke up.

even right now, this is the absolute worse i've been feeling in a while, i want to be happy, but i just can't.

sorry if it sounds stupid or anything, i guess i just did this to occupy myself.



Posted by CatKnight on Mar. 06 2001,09:05
its because you subconsciously think that your parents dont love you anymore.

which they dont. rightly so.

its a common psychological issues of kids whos parents break up. dont worry, you're now part of the other 50\% of the fux0red up population.


Posted by fatbitch on Mar. 06 2001,09:49
whenever you get dissapointed that you woke up, just think that you get to talk to me on icq, that should make you feel better

serisouly tho, i am of the opinion that everyone needs a non-sexual female they can talk to. i.e one that you arent looking to get in her pants, just satisfied to be good friends. they can be great listeners, and talkers


Posted by Jynx on Mar. 06 2001,16:32
Seriously, tho', if it continues for more than a few weeks, you may want to talk to your counsellor about it. Clinical depression is a physiological illness, and being depressed can not always be cured just by thinking happy little thoughts.

For a very very long thread, search for a thread with the title "Depression"--Michael (who I haven't seen in awhile) must've used up all of his AOL minutes posting on this subject, and most of it, from what I gathered, was accurate. 'Course, it's also populated with its share of lam0rs, but that's DetNet for ya.

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Posted by cr0bar on Mar. 06 2001,18:30
Neophyre, as the longest-running reader of these forums, I strongly advise you to exercise extreme caution when consulting other forum members on matters such as these.

In my experience, only a few people here have the proper perspective on life (or indeed even the ability to comprehend relatively straightforward english sentences) to speak on subjects of depression and anxiety.

You've been warned =)


Posted by whiskey@throttle on Mar. 06 2001,18:52
And with that said...

Neo, do you have a girlfriend? Excessive masturbation with no help can lead to depression. My advice: start getting laid.


Posted by pengu1nn on Mar. 06 2001,19:04
sex is the work of the devil!!!
Posted by askheaves on Mar. 06 2001,19:57
I disagree with you cr0. Michael had some incredible insights on depression and the likes. Most of us will say: "Get laid, get a girlfriend, get some girlfriends, find something you love, etc." Yes, that's true. Always take things on this forum with a grain of salt. But, they can bring to mind possibilities of problems, and help you refer to more information or to a doctor.

Speaking of which, Neo, did you ever get your balls fixed?


Posted by Neophyre on Mar. 06 2001,21:05
nah its got nothin to do with my parents.
i dunno, but i guess its just lack of self esteem sometimes.

sometimes i got it, sometimes i dont.

as for the getting laid thing
i'd been in a purely sexual relationship with this chick whom im no longer seeing, so yeh im in desperate need of a serious relationship i guess, i think thats the major thing missing in my life at the moment, and perhaps the reason why im a bit down lately.

like right now im at school and i feel great.
maybe im just a bit whacked out and emotional at night.

fatbitch is right, i do need that type of chick at the moment.


Posted by ic0n0 on Mar. 07 2001,00:28
I was Clinically depressed close to a year before I got help it was not a happy time for me, I would wake up be like “shit I didn’t die I can’t deal with my life”. When you are in the low of the low spots you think about all kinds of weird shit for instance if I jumped off the top of house would it kill me and if so would it leave a mess. The only thing that stopped me from blowing my brains out was the thought of the mess it would make and one my parents would have to clean up. I have always felt like a disappointment to my parents so one more thing I thought would make their memory of me worse. Of course my parents love me and are proud of me but when you are in that spot nothing is logical, if it get’s real bad seek help from whoever you trust it might save your life when you get to the low spots. I did get help I was hours away from killing myself but I did. I understand it, so if it ever get’s to said spot icq me I’ll help you out icq #11896187.

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Posted by PersonGuy on Mar. 07 2001,01:56
Normally I give the "happy pill" advice, but that doesn't seem like YOUR problem. You sound like you're just having a tempory depression. So stay close with your friends. Cut masturbation to every-other-day (max). Eat ice-cream once a week. Do you home-work. Don't want crappy sit-coms. Watch more stand-up and South Park on Comedy Central. And just ride it out. Some depressions really have no better solution that just waiting...

Of course if it goes for a year or more, see a psycologist. You'll be fine!

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Posted by damien_s_lucifer on Mar. 07 2001,04:37
personguy, did you just discover the hyphen?

how come no one gives ME any credit for that depression thread??? I'm the dude who started it off with the < antidepressants > thread, which for some reason shows up as being started by DKB even though the first post is mine.

/me nurses wounded ego...

anyway, mr. phyre, I would give it a few weeks to make sure it's not just a passing thing. If in a month or two you're still depressed, go see a counselor. Psychiatry is kind of hokey, but it works.

btw, I'm on Month 3 of Paxil. It's good stuff. Watch that your docs don't jack the dose too high, though, otherwise you'll feel happy but sleepy.


Posted by Neophyre on Mar. 07 2001,06:23
lol, personguy, i wouldnt touch the little e's!
magic smoke - i feel so much better afterwards.
i eat icecream everynight, i watch heaps of stand up shows, eg tom green, Rove (aussie equivalent of letterman), simpsons, pretty much anything that makes me laugh.

ic0n0, i actually used to think of that stuff, but never of the intent of actually doing it. now i think of stuff like, i wonder what it'd be like to fight that guy to the death? i'm constantly sizing people up. Once again, not carrying it through, just thinking about it.
i'm kinda paranoid that way i spose.

the thought of suicide is dismissed quicker than it is thought of. its the easy way out, and im not going that way.

damien, as for the pills, i've been thinking bout it, but im not particulary sure if i need it (and the reduced libido.lol)


Posted by damien_s_lucifer on Mar. 07 2001,07:16
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Originally posted by Neophyre:
damien, as for the pills, i've been thinking bout it, but im not particulary sure if i need it (and the reduced libido.lol)

need is a pretty strong word... I wouldn't be useless without the pills. I'd just be unhappy and irritable. I don't plan on taking them the rest of my life; it would be cool if I could feel the way I do now WITHOUT Paxil but I'd need a good woman for that... ::sigh::


Posted by ic0n0 on Mar. 07 2001,18:44
I’ve been on three kinds of anti-depressants 2 of them didn’t work real well. Zoloft turned me into more of a zombie than I was, no suicidal thoughts but the daylight hurt my eyes. Prozac made me really sleepy and I couldn’t stop yawning and i was also prone to falling asleep at bad times. Last drug and the only one that worked well for me was Efexor a combo SSRI and epinephrine drug worked real well, I stopped taking it like 6 months ago so far I feel alright, stay clear of the drugs if you can most of the SSRI’s have some bad side Effects SEXUAL ONES!!!! Sorry I needed to say that.
Posted by damien_s_lucifer on Mar. 07 2001,23:17
Yeah, Zoloft is really sedating. I never had much trouble with Prozac, except for the sexual side effects (yech). Effexor is too strong for most people.

The only continuing side-effect I've had with Paxil is insomnia. The doc gave me trazodone (an older antidepressant) for that. It makes me sleep better than I have in years, and it's not a "drugged" sleep like Valium or alcohol. I'm gonna keep taking it even after I'm thru with Paxil.

The way to avoid the sexual side effects (usually delayed orgasm) with Paxil is to start off with a low dose, 5 or 10mg. Take this dose until you can reach orgasm reliably (it doesn't take long at that low of a dose). Then increase your dose by 5mg, and repeat the process until you find the dose that works for you.

If you find that Paxil is making you too sleepy, you can reduce your dosage in 5mg increments until you find the right balance. It's weird because it is pretty sensitive to changes in dose - 30mg makes me seriously sedated, 20mg doesn't do much, but 25mg is perfect.

This probably won't work with Prozac because it's in capsule form. With Paxil you can just cut the pills with a pill cutter.

Anyway, Mr. Phyre, I hope you feel better soon.


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