Topic: Figgered It Out; I'll Never See You Again
started by: forumwhore
Posted by forumwhore on Jul. 14 2002,08:49
You slept on the bed; me the floor.I was happy.
You told me vicarious tales of motel rooms;
I shook with desire
I was your best friend
and you left
suddenly.
Forever.
I guess I'm supposed to stop loving you
but I don't have a reason.
Posted by WillyPete on Jul. 16 2002,16:24
Dammit, you weren't meant to tell.And if you dare mention the gerbil...
Posted by jim on Jul. 16 2002,16:50
Ummmm, what the fuck is the point of this thread?
Posted by ic0n0 on Jul. 17 2002,05:54
Posted by forumwhore on Jul. 17 2002,06:37
take care, honey
that picture is at least 20 years old; you don't respond to my emails and I just wish you all the best Life can offer.
20 years and a million light-years ago you amazed me.
I will always wonder and care for you.
I love you Valery.
Posted by forumwhore on Jul. 17 2002,07:11
You had an abusive father and an insecure mother.You had a sister ready to screw all your friends.
(Vicky was an awesome fuck)
You designed and made all your clothes.
You read books.
You grew your own food and cooked it.
which I never understood.I never will see you again, you are in France .
You have two wonderful children.
goddammit Valery
how can you not remember me?
Remember the Espresso Bar in Pasadena at 4am?
The blind black man playing the same riffs over and over?
The smell of your hair.
Walking you up to your door when I didn't need to.
You posing for pictures, which I have a much clearer understanding now...psychology and all that...
No matter, if you never do, I will do all the feeling necessary.
Your husband is a very lucky man and I hope he knows it.
Sometimes I wish we never got it on.
It has been 12 years since I have seen you and I am scarred perhaps for life;
I would do it again in a second.
I wonder how my life would be different if you were still here.
After your first son, you looked amazing; only 2 months later I couldn't tell you were a mother.
You have no idea how much
I would have liked to sire your son.
Dear Valery, you gave me hope, confidence, joy, sexiness, and I learned many things I cannot describe when you went and fucked those guys but not me.
You left me
I never left you.
When I understand the lesson implicit in that, perhaps I will mature and become the person you will never ever know.
You did not choose to inflict pain, I chose to feel it.
You were/are an amazing human, and now you have two (surely) beautiful children that you are raising to the best of your ability.
I believe what I am saying is that I'm scared.
Will I ever love another woman like you again?
It's been a while.
Posted by forumwhore on Jul. 17 2002,08:34
You are cherished.
Posted by Wolfguard on Jul. 17 2002,13:34
dood...Step away from the booze and listen up.
She is gone and has a life of her own. maybe its good, maybe its bad, maybe its just ok but it is her's. She pretty much moved to the other side of the planet for a reason. maybe the reason she does not return your messages is because she just wants to put the past behind her and move on and forget everthing of her old life because of everthing else its attached to.
Be happy for her. sounds like she is doing good for herself. she has her shit together and is trying to correct the mistakes of the past.
Take happiness in the simple fact that your life is better because she passed through it.
Nothing else to see here, move along!
Posted by forumwhore on Jul. 22 2002,02:26
You're right, as usual.Kiss your wife real good tonight, k?
V. wrote back finally.